Yellow Diamond: Chapter 2 - part 6
Mizusawa's
mother, a slightly overweight woman in a white blouse and brown skirt, had a
furious look on her face. Beside her, Mizusawa sat meekly, like a frightened
cat. His face had been cleaned up, and aside from his unnaturally red nose,
there was no trace of the blood that had once covered him. Only the cut on the
corner of his mouth seemed to bother him, as he kept flicking at it with the
tip of his tongue.
"How
can the school leave such a violent student unchecked like this?"
The moment
she entered the disciplinary office, Mizusawa’s mother glared at Shun’ichi and
began speaking without any preamble.
"My
son told me that he was suddenly attacked. If this student is so emotionally
unstable, you need to be monitoring him more carefully."
Her red
lips fired off words like a machine gun, and Fukiyama, the homeroom teacher,
visibly shrank under her barrage, stammering, "Uh... well... you
see," while pressing a hand to his forehead.
"Please,
take a seat," Fukiyama managed to say. Mizusawa and his mother sat down
across from Shun’ichi at a long table. The machine-gun-like tirade paused only
until they were seated, and then Mizusawa’s mother started up again, like a
broken faucet spilling words.
"This
is why I hate public schools. I should’ve pushed harder to send him to a
private school, even against my husband’s wishes. And now, in the middle of all
this, the parents of that student aren’t even here yet!"
Fukiyama,
like a broken doll, kept bowing his head and muttering, "I’m sorry, I’m
sorry."
"I did
contact Sanada’s guardian," Fukiyama explained. "But due to his work,
it’s going to take some time for him to arrive. Please be patient."
Shun’ichi
felt the blood drain from his face. He hadn’t expected Isamu to come. It made
sense—Mizusawa’s mother was here, so of course his own parent would be called
too. But it hadn’t even crossed his mind.
"Sensei,
did you… contact my dad?" Shun’ichi asked. Fukiyama turned to him with a
gaze colder than anything Shun’ichi had ever seen.
"Your
father was quite shocked."
"Excuse
me!" Mizusawa’s mother cut in with a shrill voice.
"Why
call his father? You should’ve called his mother! I want to see what kind of
woman raised him to be like this!"
Taken aback
by her outburst, Fukiyama replied in a small voice, "Sanada’s family is a
single-parent household. He’s being raised by his father."
A sneer
spread across Mizusawa’s mother’s face. She glanced at Shun’ichi with
condescending eyes, nodding as if she had just figured everything out.
"Ah, I
see. Well, that explains it. It’s no wonder the child’s so poorly raised
without a mother."
That logic
was infuriating. If Shun’ichi was so poorly raised, then what about Mizusawa,
who kicked people around like a soccer ball? He wanted to say something but bit
his tongue.
There was a
knock on the door, and a muffled voice said, "Uh, is this the guidance
office?" It was Isamu. Shun’ichi wanted to run away but found himself
frozen, trembling in his chair.
"Come
in," Fukiyama called out, and in walked Isamu, wearing his blue work
uniform with a name tag that read "Yoshihara Sanitation." He glanced
around nervously as he stepped inside, his face pale.
"Sorry
I’m late. I just couldn’t get away from work," Isamu apologized, bowing
deeply as if he were a grade-schooler about to enter the principal’s office.
"Uh, which one is the homeroom teacher?"
"That’s
me. Nice to meet you, I’m Fukiyama."
"Ah,
hello. I’m Sanada," Isamu said, bowing again.
"Where’s
the kid my Shun’ichi hurt? Which hospital is he in? I want to go see him right
away, but they told me to come to the school first. Is he seriously hurt? Like,
about to die or something?"
At Isamu’s
words, Mizusawa’s mother grimaced as if she’d bitten into something sour.
Fukiyama, looking awkward, gestured toward Mizusawa and his mother, indicating
that they were the "victims" in question.
“There they
are—the student who was hit by Sanada-kun and his parent. I might have
misspoken earlier and caused a misunderstanding, but as for the injury, it
doesn’t seem like he needs to go to the hospital.”
Isuma, his
face blank with surprise, exclaimed, “Eh?!”
“The office
lady told me it was a ‘serious injury,’ so I rushed over here! I thought for
sure Shun’ichi grabbed a steel pipe and beat the kid to a pulp or something!”
Relieved
that it wasn’t a severe injury, Isuma spoke with a laugh. At that moment,
Mizusawa’s mother narrowed her eyes and stood from her chair.
“Even if
it’s just a kids’ fight, the fact is my child was hit and got hurt!”
Isuma
stared at Mizusawa’s mother, who was squeaking like a monkey, with an intensity
that made her hesitate. Then, all of a sudden, he clapped his hands.
“Oh, I knew
I’d seen you somewhere before! You’re the lady who lives in that house with the
blue roof in Sawara Ward, right? I always swing by for collection there.”
Mizusawa’s
mother widened her eyes in shock.
“Uh,
ma’am... what was your name again?”
Reluctantly,
as if she had no choice, Mizusawa’s mother gave him her name. Seemingly
oblivious to the tension, Isuma continued to chat casually.
“Near your
place, the trash pickup is always late, right? It’s because the truck gets full
at the previous stop, and we have to return to the incinerator. But you always
take out your trash late too, so it actually works out perfectly, doesn’t it?”
As Isuma
laughed without a care, Mizusawa’s mother flushed red and fell silent. At the
urging of the homeroom teacher, Isuma sat in the chair to his right, bringing
with him a faint odor of garbage. Sitting in a distant seat, Fukiyama twitched
his nose, probably noticing the smell too. Awkward.
“What the
hell are you doing, man? Wait, wasn’t Mizusawa... Mizusawa was your friend,
right? You told me he became your buddy after starting junior high school.”
Isuma
tilted his head, thinking.
“Well,
being too close can lead to fights, you know. I’ve lost count of how many times
Kunihiko and I fought. Stuff like that brings you closer as real friends. So...
why exactly was I called here again?”
Listening
to Isuma’s rambling, it was hard not to feel like the situation wasn’t that
serious after all. Everyone seemed to be sucked into his slightly offbeat way
of talking, leaving them dumbfounded. In the midst of it, Fukiyama suddenly
snapped back to reality, clearing his throat with a serious expression.
“Fights
between kids happen often, but the issue here is that it happened at school,
and one of the close friends was beaten so badly that he bled. Even a minor
disagreement can sometimes escalate into bullying, and that’s what we’re trying
to prevent at an early stage. The school wants to address the causes and ensure
this never happens again, with the parents involved in the discussion. Sure,
this was a kids' fight, but these kids aren’t elementary schoolers anymore.
They’re growing up, their bodies becoming like adults’. If they start solving
problems with violence now, it’ll cause them trouble down the line.”
Isuma kept
tilting his head, offering a weak “Ah, yeah,” the way a child would when being
scolded. The teacher’s speech had parts that seemed beyond Isuma’s
understanding, and there was a moment of tension as everyone wondered if he’d
embarrassingly ask for clarification. But he didn’t.
"Sanada,
why did you hit Mizusawa?"
Fukiyama
posed an unpleasant question. Shun’ichi clenched his hands tightly on his lap. I
won’t say anything, he resolutely decided. The reason he hadn't reported
Mizusawa's bullying to the teacher was that he didn't want Isuma to know. He
didn't want all the time he'd endured being hit and insulted to go to waste
over something like this.
“Sensei,
when this guy’s holding something in, he always grips his hands tight, like
that. He’s done it ever since he was little. Did you know that?”
Startled, Shun’ichi
quickly opened his hands on his lap. Isuma laughed at the sight.
"Sanada-san,
excuse me, but are you understanding what I’m saying?"
Fukiyama
couldn’t hide his irritation toward Isuma, who kept talking about irrelevant
things, like childhood habits, completely off-topic. Noticing the rising
tension, a hint of nervousness flashed across Isuma’s face.
“Ah, yeah.
I get it. So, um… what I’m saying is, this guy’s probably holding something in.
Like, even if he hit that guy, he must’ve had a reason. That’s why you called
the parents to talk it out, right? Am I saying something wrong?”
Though
roundabout, Isuma was trying to simplify Fukiyama’s carefully laid-out words
into something more basic. He wasn’t wrong, so Fukiyama was left with nothing
to say.
“There’s no
reason!”
Suddenly,
the normally quiet Mizusawa burst out.
“He just
hit me out of nowhere! He’s never liked me. From the start, he’s been messing
with me, hitting me from behind or playing pranks... It’s been awful.”
To Shun’ichi’s
surprise, Mizusawa’s eyes were brimming with tears. He hadn’t known it was
possible to cry so convincingly, even if it was all a lie.
“See?
There’s no reason at all!”
Mizusawa’s
mother, fueled by her son’s tears, regained her anger. She embraced her tearful
child like soothing a baby, stroking his head.
“You poor
thing... But it’s okay now, Mama’s here. I’ll take care of everything.”
With eyes
full of hatred, Mizusawa’s mother glared at the offending student and his
father.
“Let me say
this clearly. The reason your child turned out to be so violent without any
cause is because, as a single father, you’ve failed to properly discipline
him.”
“Ah, but…”
Though
taken aback and leaning back under the force of Mizusawa’s mother’s words,
Isuma still spoke up in defiance.
“His mom,
Riku... she was an amazing woman. But when this guy was two or three, she got
sick and died.”
Mizusawa’s
mother furrowed her brows and kept silent.
“She really
wanted to live, but in the end, she didn’t make it.”
Isuma, lost
in thought for a moment, narrowed his eyes in reminiscence. At that point,
Fukiyama hesitantly spoke up.
“Excuse me,
but I don’t think that has anything to do with what Mizusawa-san was saying, or
with this situation...”
Isuma, now
confused, looked around at the others.
“Huh? But
Mizusawa-san mentioned it being a single-parent household. If Riku had been
alive, we could’ve raised him together, but since she passed away, it can’t be
helped. I mean, even if you tell me that’s bad, I don’t know what to do about
it.”
Mizusawa’s
mother clenched the handkerchief in her trembling hand.
“What I’m
saying is, it’s not about whether the mother is present or not. The problem is
that as a single father, you haven’t disciplined him properly.”
Isuma,
growing more frustrated, shifted restlessly in his seat.
"That's
why I'm saying it's inevitable that I'm raising him alone. I never remarried.
Sure, Shun’ichi probably felt lonely without a mother, but..."
The
conversation wasn’t making sense. Even Shun’ichi, watching from the sidelines,
could painfully tell. Isuma was trying his best to explain, and he wasn’t
wrong, but something about it felt off. Mizusawa’s mother, who had initially
been confused, now looked exasperated as the conversation went in circles. She
let out a sigh.
“So, why
did you hit him? I get it, sometimes things get frustrating, but even that
frustration has a reason, doesn’t it? Everyone here just wants to know that
reason. Talk it out, then apologize to your friend.”
Isuma’s
dirty hand gently patted Shun’ichi on the head.
“I won’t
get mad, so just tell us.”
The room
fell silent. The quietness, with everyone waiting for him to speak, felt like a
slow tightening noose around his neck. Shun’ichi just wanted to escape the
suffocating tension. He didn’t care if he was seen as the bad guy anymore; he
just wanted it all to end.
“Mom, I
don’t feel well.”
Mizusawa
muttered. His mother hurriedly turned to him, patting his cheeks anxiously.
“What’s
wrong? Are you alright?”
Watching
the exchange, Fukiyama let out a sigh.
“It’s
common for kids at this age to lash out and hit others without reason. However,
from what I’ve gathered, Sanada-kun has been harassing Mizusawa-kun regularly,
and this time, it escalated into physical violence. As their homeroom teacher,
I’ll make sure to keep a close eye on things and discuss this with the class.
For now, I believe having the parents strictly caution their children should
suffice. We’re running out of time for the next class as well…”
“Yes,
understood.”
Mizusawa’s
mother stood, nodding. The sound of chairs scraping the floor echoed, but Isuma
remained seated. Noticing this, Fukiyama bent down and peered into his face.
“Sanada-san?”
“Hey, is
that it? Is the discussion over?”
Fukiyama,
slightly taken aback, hesitated. “Well, uh... yes, more or less…”
Still
seated, Isuma rattled his chair in frustration, his face angry. Mizusawa’s
mother furrowed her brow at his strange behavior.
“This
doesn’t make sense. We’re supposed to talk things out so no one gets hit or
hits someone again, right? But we haven’t figured out anything yet. Shun’ichi
hasn’t said a word. Even if there’s no reason, he hasn’t said there’s no
reason. And that kid too—aren’t you mad about being hit without knowing why?
Don’t you want to understand why you got punched?”
“But, the
time…”
Fukiyama
glanced quickly at the clock on the wall, but Isuma dismissed it with a single
sentence.
“Yeah, I
get that you’ve got work, Sensei, but I left my job to be here too. We’re
already short-staffed, and this is causing a lot of trouble for everyone. Since
I’m here, let’s have a proper discussion. If we don’t, I won’t even know why I
took the day off in the first place.”
Mizusawa’s
mother shook her head and sighed, clearly troubled.
“Sanada-san,
I understand your point, but if the teacher doesn’t conduct class, it’s an
inconvenience for the other students. I don’t think it’s appropriate to hold
the teacher back for the sake of just one child.”
Isuma
wasn’t about to give up.
“But the
teacher called me here for this discussion, right? Bullying sometimes leads the
bullied kid to the point of suicide. I don’t want that either, so let’s talk
this out properly. If we find out the reason, I’ll make sure Shun’ichi
apologizes. Otherwise, how could you feel at ease, ma’am?”
“That’s
enough!”
Shun’ichi
yanked hard on his father’s sleeve. In the brief silence that followed, Shun’ichi
bowed quickly to Mizusawa and his mother before they could say anything else.
“I’m sorry
for hitting you.”
Before Shun’ichi
could even fully bow his head, Isuma pulled it back up roughly.
“Apologizing
comes last. You’ve got to explain yourself first, then apologize from the
heart. Just bowing your head quickly like that doesn’t mean anything.”
Mizusawa
tugged on his mother’s hand.
“Mom, can I
go home now?”
Isuma
turned around and said, “Hold on a sec,” before staring intently at Mizusawa.
Uncomfortable under the scrutiny, Mizusawa averted his gaze.
“Hey,
haven’t we met somewhere before? I feel like I’ve seen your face before. I’ve
been thinking about it, but I just can’t remember.”
“I don’t
know you,” Mizusawa flatly denied, but Isuma kept furrowing his brow, deep in
thought, until suddenly he shouted, “Ah!”
“You’re
that brat from the other day! No wonder I didn’t recognize you—acting all quiet
and polite like that. You’re the kid who mocked me during the bulky waste
pickup, right? You pointed at me and laughed, saying something about me not
being able to read kanji!”
“Th-that’s
a lie!” Mizusawa yelled, his face pale. But Isuma kept talking.
“I remember
now. You were making fun of me, saying I smelled bad, just like a little kid
would. I remember thinking, ‘Ah, this jerk goes to the same junior high school
as Shun’ichi.’ Yeah, it pissed me off, but whatever. What really got me was
when you spit your gum on my clothes—stuck so hard I couldn’t get it off. My
boss even chewed me out for it.”
Mizusawa’s
mother, her face red with fury, stepped forward.
“Hold on,
Sanada-san. I know you’re trying to protect your child, but stop making these
baseless accusations. My son would never do something as vulgar as
spitting gum on someone’s clothes!”
Isuma
smiled gently at her, completely unfazed by her anger.
“Oh, sorry.
I guess that had nothing to do with today’s topic, huh? And don’t worry, ma’am,
I’m totally over it. It was just a kid’s prank. No need to get mad at him for
it.”
Mizusawa’s
mother, trembling and biting her lip, turned to her son with a terrifying look,
her face like an enraged demon.
“Is what
Sanada-san is saying true?”
Mizusawa,
his face filled with fear, shook his head vigorously.
“No! No! It’s a lie! I didn’t... I didn’t spit gum…”
Relieved,
Mizusawa’s mother immediately turned her fury back toward Isuma.
“Yoshimi
says it’s a lie! Sanada-san, stop saying things that could lead to
misunderstandings!”
With his
hands on his hips, Isuma let out a long sigh.
“I get it,
it’s embarrassing to admit the truth in front of your mom, but lying is bad,
kid. It’s the first step toward becoming a thief, you know? Kids always get
forgiven if they say, ‘I’m sorry,’ so it’s smarter to do that.”
“I told you
to stop making such ridiculous accusations!” Mizusawa’s mother shrieked, her
voice high-pitched with anger. Isuma blinked in surprise.
“Wait a
second, are you doubting me? Do you think I’m the one lying here?”
Tilting his
head, Isuma stared straight at Mizusawa’s mother.
“But my
child…”
Mizusawa’s
mother mumbled, her words faltering.
“Don’t you
think your kid could be lying? Kids lie all the time. When I was his age, I
lied about everything. I understand how he feels. I’d probably lie too if I
were in his shoes. But I’m an adult now, so I don’t do sneaky things like that
anymore. I don’t lie. So why are you doubting me, Mizusawa-san?”
Mizusawa’s
mother let out a sharp, frustrated breath. “Enough already!”
"My
son said he didn't do it, so there's nothing more to say. He's never lied to
me, not once. He's a really good boy."
Isuma
slowly lowered his gaze.
"...The
guy I usually work with, he was there when I got mocked. If I brought him here,
would you believe that I'm telling the truth? But honestly, I don't think it
would really matter."
Mizusawa’s
mother turned her head slowly, staring intently at the bowed head of her son.
The room was thick with silence until Fukiyama spoke up.
“Excuse me,
but I’ll go inform the class to have self-study for the third period. Please
wait here a moment.”
As Fukiyama
left the guidance office, the atmosphere grew even heavier. Sighing, Mizusawa’s
mother sat back down, with Mizusawa shrinking beside her.
“By the
way, how’s your leg doing?”
Isuma
pulled out a chair and peered under the desk.
“It’s still
swollen, isn’t it? Does it hurt? Maybe I should get crutches from the
hospital?”
“No need to
make a big deal out of it,” Shun’ichi muttered.
Isuma
slowly raised his head again. He stared at Shun’ichi for a long moment before
reaching out with his dirty fingers to tousle his son’s hair.
“Don’t
bottle things up, okay?”
It was
probably advice meant for the pain, but it felt like Isuma was telling him not
to hold back in general. That made Shun’ichi’s chest ache with a prickling
pain.
“I-I’m the
victim here!”
Mizusawa
suddenly spoke, his voice breaking the tension.
“I got hit,
and it hurt! I was bleeding a lot! So why do I have to sit here like this? I’m
being accused of something ridiculous, and I have to just sit and take it! Mom,
I want to go home already!”
“Be quiet,”
his mother snapped, her voice sharp, but Mizusawa, flushed with feverish anger,
continued.
“I didn’t
do anything wrong. I didn’t! It’s all his fault! I—”
“I said, be
quiet!”
Finally,
Mizusawa fell silent. The only sound left in the room was the heavy drumming of
rain against the windows.
“…This is
my first time meeting him, but I think I might not like your teacher very
much,” Isuma mumbled.
“Huh? Why?”
“Dunno.
Just a feeling. You ever get that?”
“No, not
really.”
“I see.”
The sound
of the rain continued to echo, but the silence didn’t last for even five
minutes. Footsteps approached, and soon the door to the guidance office opened
with a noisy clatter. Following Fukiyama were two students—Akimori and
Yamashita. Shun’ichi tilted his head, confused as to why the two had been
brought in.
“Oh, it’s
Akimori-san’s son!” Mizusawa’s mother exclaimed in surprise. Akimori nodded,
saying, “Hello.”
“I’ve
brought students who witnessed the fight,” Fukiyama explained, turning to the
two boys.
“Yamashita,
you said you saw Sanada hit Mizusawa, right?”
Yamashita,
who had been hunched over awkwardly since entering, nodded slightly as he
glanced at Mizusawa.
“Mizusawa
claims Sanada suddenly attacked him. Is that true?”
“Well,
uh... yeah, I guess…”
Though his
response was halting, Yamashita confirmed it. Next, Fukiyama turned to Akimori.
“Akimori,
you saw the fight too, right? What did you see?”
A bad
feeling ran up Shun’ichi’s spine. Akimori took a small breath and began
speaking slowly.
“Sanada-kun
and Mizusawa-kun were fighting.”
Fukiyama,
arms still crossed, widened his eyes slightly.
“Fighting?
So it wasn’t that Sanada suddenly hit him?”
“Yamashita-kun
is Mizusawa-kun’s friend, so I think he’s trying to cover for him.”
Akimori
stated this confidently.
“That’s not
what I was told. Hey, Sanada, what was the reason for the fight?”
Shun’ichi
felt a sharp pain at his temples. Why did Fukiyama have to bring Akimori
here? This was supposed to end with me being the bad guy. Why drag it all back
up?
“Sensei,
Mizusawa-kun said to Sanada-kun’s...”
Before
Akimori could finish, Shun’ichi shot up from his seat. The sudden movement
caused the chair to topple over with a loud crash.
“Stop
saying crap and get out of here!”
Everyone’s
eyes were suddenly on Shun’ichi.
“What’s got
you so worked up?” Isuma asked, confused, reaching for Shun’ichi’s blazer. But Shun’ichi
angrily shook his hand off.
“Akimori, I
told you to get out!”
Mizusawa’s
mother furrowed her brow. She probably thought he was a foul-mouthed kid now,
but Shun’ichi didn’t care. No matter how much he shouted, Akimori remained
still. Shun’ichi took a shaky step forward, his leg throbbing in pain, just
wanting to drive Akimori out. But before he could, Fukiyama grabbed him from
behind in a bear hug, as if thinking Shun’ichi was about to hit Akimori.
“Let go!
Let me go!”
Trapped at
a distance, unable to approach or chase him away, Shun’ichi was left to just
glare as Akimori stared back, unflinching.
“Mizusawa-kun
told Sanada-kun that his father couldn’t even read simple kanji and should
start school over from elementary,” Akimori said calmly.
“Shut up!” Shun’ichi
shouted, his voice desperate. Akimori’s tone sounded smug, as though he was
satisfied with what he was revealing. Even with Shun’ichi screaming at him,
Akimori didn’t flinch and kept his chest puffed out in confidence.
“Why aren’t
you saying anything?”
Akimori’s
anger seemed to come from the injustice of seeing the bully now playing the
victim. His eyes burned with self-righteousness. Shun’ichi knew that if he just
spoke the truth, he wouldn’t have to be the bad guy anymore. But even though he
knew this, he stayed silent.
“This
morning, Sanada-kun’s desk had a funeral wreath placed on it, and someone wrote
‘funeral’ on the blackboard.”
The truth
that had been carefully erased. Shun’ichi saw Fukiyama’s shocked expression,
but Akimori kept going.
“Mizusawa-kun
and his friends did it. A classmate said they saw Yamashita-kun and Tsutsui-kun
drawing on the board early in the morning. Why didn’t you say you were being
bullied, Sanada-kun? There’s nothing to be ashamed of. You’ve done nothing
wrong.”
“I don’t
care about that stuff, so just drop it!”
The truth
was finally out, and Fukiyama, his face stiff with tension, turned to Mizusawa.
“Akimori,
is what you’re saying true?”
Mizusawa
shrieked, his voice high-pitched.
“It’s all
lies! Akimori’s trying to frame me! He’s bullying me!”
“The liar
here is you, Mizusawa-kun. We’ve been in the same cram school since elementary,
and you’ve always lied. You badmouthed your friend Sanada behind his back,
too.”
Akimori’s
words were relentless.
“That’s
enough! Please, just shut up!” Shun’ichi’s voice cracked, pleading. Mizusawa
being a liar, the fact that he was being bullied—none of that mattered anymore.
He just wanted it to end.
Isuma
tilted his head, watching him. Meanwhile, Akimori took a deep breath.
“Mizusawa-kun
insulted Sanada-kun’s father, calling him dumb. At first, Sanada-kun kept his
cool, but then Mizusawa said, ‘It’s not even a matter of good or bad. Both you
and your dad are a burden on society.’ That’s when he snapped and hit him.
Honestly, Mizusawa deserved it.”
The room
fell dead silent. The quiet was broken only by Mizusawa’s protests—“It’s not my
fault,” “I’m the one being bullied”—repeating over and over like an alarm clock
that someone had forgotten to turn off.
Shun’ichi
saw Isuma’s hands clench into tight fists. He was biting his lip, his face
twisted like he might cry any moment. Shun’ichi realized it. All the hardship
of being hit and kicked over these weeks—now it felt like it had all evaporated
in a single moment, like a bubble popping. His knees gave out, and he sank to
the floor.
Isuma moved
toward him, kneeling down beside him. His large but gentle hand came to rest on
Shun’ichi’s head.
“I’m
sorry.”
That hand
was warm, but it trembled ever so slightly. The ache in Shun’ichi’s chest made
it hard to breathe. He wanted to scream, to shout out all his pent-up feelings,
but instead, tears silently fell from his eyes. He tried to wipe them away with
the back of his hand, but they wouldn’t stop. Hiding his face against the dirty
floor, he wept.
“I’m sorry
for being so dumb.”
Why did
Isuma have to apologize? Why did he have to feel this way? The unfairness of it
stung deeply. No matter how much Shun’ichi tried to say it wasn’t true, Isuma
would probably still end up blaming himself. I’m stupid, he’d think,
punishing himself.
Time seemed
to freeze. No one spoke, no one moved. The only sound in the cramped guidance
office was Shun’ichi’s sobs, echoing painfully through the room.
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While Shun’ichi
was crying, Mizusawa's mother quietly left the guidance office with her son.
Neither of them offered a single apology. Maybe they thought it wasn't
necessary. As Isuma knelt beside his weeping son, he kept apologizing over and
over. The more he apologized, the harder Shun’ichi cried. But Isuma didn’t seem
to realize that. Shun’ichi rubbed his leaking tears away with force, and he
gently pushed his father’s hand off his head.
“Just go
back to work already.”
Even though
he tried to act tough, the trembling in his voice betrayed him, and that
frustrated him.
“I’m fine.
I already told everyone I’d be taking time off. But…”
“You’re
worried you’ll get fired, aren’t you? And if that happens, we’ll get kicked out
of the apartment in no time.”
Isuma’s
face grew serious as he muttered, “Yeah, that’s true…”
“If you’re
so worried, just go back already. I’m fine.”
“Quit
nagging. Just go back.”
Shun’ichi
gave his father’s shoulder a firm, exaggerated pat, as if to shove him away.
Looking troubled, Isuma finally stood up and put some distance between them. As
he made to leave, Fukiyama hurried over.
“Thank you
so much for coming today.”
“Ah, yeah,”
Isuma mumbled, still unsure if anything had really been resolved. Then, before
leaving, he turned back to Fukiyama.
“Uh,
Sensei…”
Fukiyama’s
expression stiffened.
“Please
look after Shun’ichi. I don’t really understand how things work in school,
so... please keep an eye on him for me.”
Isuma bowed
deeply, like a sales clerk in a department store, and left the room. As soon as
his figure disappeared from view, Fukiyama’s shoulders slumped, and he let out
a long sigh.
“You guys
can head back to class now.”
Yamashita
darted out into the hallway the moment the words left Fukiyama’s mouth. Akimori
walked over, offering his hand to help Shun’ichi, likely out of concern for his
injured leg. Shun’ichi hated it. He wanted to snap at those insufferably
helpful fingers.
“Akimori,
you go back to class too. Sanada, stay for a bit. I need to talk to you.”
Akimori
hesitated for a moment, glancing at Shun’ichi, but eventually left the guidance
office. Facing Shun’ichi, Fukiyama let out a small grunt.
“I’m sure
what happened today will be discussed with the class, but before that… if
you’re ever being bullied, you need to tell me before it gets serious. Keeping
it to yourself won’t solve the problem.”
It was as
if Fukiyama was reprimanding him for staying silent, as if keeping quiet had
been wrong. Mizusawa, who claimed he’d been hit, had been shielded by his
mother and left without facing any consequences, yet Shun’ichi was the one
being blamed.
“So it’s my
fault? For being bullied, for keeping it quiet… all of it’s my fault?”
“That’s not
what I meant—” Fukiyama started to explain, but Shun’ichi cut him off abruptly.
“I didn’t
mind being the bad guy.”
Without
giving Fukiyama a chance to respond, Shun’ichi bowed his head, directing his
words toward his teacher who was trying to shift the blame onto him.
“Thank you
for today.”
Shun’ichi
spoke slowly, deliberately separating each word. He didn’t feel sorry at all.
Every word was drenched in sarcasm, and he knew it.
This chapter broke me 😭 I hope Kunihiko comforts Isuma
ReplyDeleteI was heartbroken too, but I really liked how Isamu stood his ground and wanted to investigate the whole incident when everyone was already deeming his son as the guilty one. Isamu may be bad at parenting, but he really stood out here 🥺
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