いとしいこと

Previous   TOC The person Dan was supposed to have lunch with had run into flight trouble returning from a business trip and contacted them to say he wouldn’t make it in time. Since it wasn’t an urgent matter, they canceled and agreed to reschedule another day. This left a two-hour gap in Dan’s schedule from noon to 2 p.m. today. Since the cancellation came just an hour before the meeting, there wasn’t much time to move other appointments around. Sagawa tried to see if anything else could be slotted in but found it impossible. Dan was flexible when it came to managing his time, so he would probably find something to do on his own. The door to the secretary's office swung open without a knock, startling Sagawa. He quickly lifted his face from his computer screen and pushed up the bridge of his glasses. The first thing he saw was blond hair—such a bright gold that it couldn’t belong to anyone in the Administration Division. “Hello, Ryousuke.” The man greeted him with a bright smile. ...

Previous   TOC   Next Before he realized it, Sagawa found himself lying on his back in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling. It felt like he had been unconscious for only ten minutes or so, and yet the sky beyond the hotel curtains—dark just a while ago—was now starting to lighten with the early glow of morning. His body was sticky, coated in fluids—sweat, semen, or something else—and his hips ached with a deep soreness, while his backside was numb. It had been a brutal, rape kind of sex, and yet the heavy, smoldering hunger that had plagued him for so long had been burned away entirely. He felt strangely clearheaded. Dan was no longer beside him. When Sagawa lifted his torso, a dull throb pulsed through his lower back, forcing him to pause until the pain subsided. He reached for his glasses, found them sitting on the headboard, and put them on. Looking around, he saw Dan in front of the mirror, buttoned into a white dress shirt and slacks—corporate uniform as usual—tying his n...

Previous   TOC   Next When Dan had asked for someone to cover his secretary’s duties, he must have already known it would be his former contract lover who showed up—because even when Sagawa arrived at his upscale condo, Dan’s expression didn’t change. “I’ll be filling in as your secretary for the next two days,” Sagawa said. “I’m still inexperienced, so I may not be much help, but I look forward to working with you.” Dan gave a curt nod. “Understood.” There was no obvious sign of displeasure or anger on his face, and that alone gave Sagawa a small sense of relief. They got into a taxi—Sagawa in the front seat, Dan in the back. The driver, who had been talkative until they picked up Dan, went quiet the moment the foreigner entered the car. He only confirmed the destination and then fell silent. With no music or radio playing, the hum of the engine was the only sound in the cramped space. There were three people now, but the real problem would come when it was just the two of th...

Previous   TOC   Next Two days after returning from the disastrous trip to Kanazawa, Reina finally marked all of Sagawa’s messages as read in one go. Then, in a polite tone, she sent a single message: “I don’t think our hobbies or interests are compatible. I’d like to end our relationship here.” Sagawa replied with “Please reconsider” and “I’d like to talk with you again” —but soon after, he was likely blocked again. Even half a day later, his messages remained unread, and his calls wouldn’t go through. If it were possible, he genuinely wanted to start over. But at the same time, the thought of seeing her again made him recoil. He couldn’t bear the idea of facing those eyes that had looked at him like he was something filthy. Having been caught using a vibrator and told she was “physically repulsed” had left a deeper mental scar than he’d expected. Since then, his ability to get erect had become even weaker. Even with a sex worker stimulating him from behind, he often couldn...